Finding yourself and your spirituality can be a breathtakingly glorious experience that leads you through a field of enlightenment and happiness, but no conversion in the world has the ability to eliminate your own history.
This is neither good nor bad, but it can be hard and it has to be accepted and understood.
Langston and I continued to call and text regularly.
Two months later, I found myself heading back to New Orleans on assignment. ”“I’ve got to get some rest before I go back to work at 4. That next morning, a little after 7am, Langston called me. Ever since I was little, I would sleep on the floor,” Langston said.“Oook…”We continued the small talk.
I let Langston know I was coming back and he responded with the hearts in the eyes emoji.“I’ll make up for last time,” Langston told me during one of our phone calls.“Yeah you will,” I joked. So I’ll see you right after I get off my overnight job and then get rest after I leave you. I was still in bed, forgetting to set my alarm the night before after some Frenchman St. ” Langston asked before I could muster up a hello that didn’t sound exhausted and hungover.“Uhm,” I squeezed out of my throat. “This might help.”He laughed and in his deep New Orleans accent, he said, “It do.”I laid across the bed. I learned more about all the jobs he has and why he has them–his daughter. He sends her to private school and lives like a pauper.
The first thing all born again Christians must look at before moving forth into the dating world is their past.If it's not blatantly clear you felt you needed to convert to Christianity then you need to look inside yourself and determine the answer.Once it is clear what about you that you didn't like then you need to look at the you of yesterday and accept that person as part of who you are today, but in a different and more positive light.Mistakes are a part of humanity as a whole and serve an important role in making every individual who he or she is.Being a born again Christian who has lived a part of your life in a way that you now consider to be wrong is akin to recovering from alcoholism or getting a divorce and remarrying in a way; it's for the best but it's not always incredibly easy.